all that's stuff is killing me i can't say i can complain because if don't i'm not gonna be me , i'm afraid for it all cause personal this is destroing me ever my conscepicious all tem are right , it so rela and i just wish i knew a little bit about this propose to be in my evolution at tis planet , with this family that does not understands me or anyone gives cares what i need i do eerythinng that i can even if i don't have many friends ,it too paining to ask about why are things here the way are without any answer , i know i'm not nothing for demanding anyhthing i don't but this circles just repeaat and don't ave a possible end somestimes i can have little of horrible judments of myself that could explain  wy i 'm suffer like that there's not no solution.i' feel so ignored in this life that more never were so excited i guess when i have money i 'll rujnaway a place that i can feel ok.since 13 .it's putting hurts until my soul never way i'm not gonna let down myself by this althought i can' tpretend i'm not seeing that this does not exist. CRIATIVE so i keep and different away to run of this to fight and so rebel hart .